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This, will be the last goodbye. No more turning back.

Not so horrible
20 September 2007; Thursday

Last night, got caught for werking underage at the pub.
Worse, Uncle G. didnt help.. he denied everything and act innocent.
Middle of the night, my cousin bailed me out from the police station.
Back to school.. eveything went terribly wrong.
The OM came looking for me in class and told me to take off my hairbands.
I was shocked.. that was damn random!
So, you could just imagine my Pink brown gold blonde hair being exposed weirdly,
because I'm in uniform!
And he actually swore to throw my hairbands away if i wanna use them to cover my coloured hair. o__o
Making my way to the office, eveybody gave me that "WTF is this man!" written all over their face.
Funny, though, the principle came, and argued with the OM.
Dumb dumb!! Hahaa. Cause i did nothing wrong, I've tied my hair up and neat,
Unlike others whom let down their tinted hair and still get away with it.
Worse is that he made me walk to the office with my bright pink hair exposed to little kids!! Lmao!
After i was given the dumb permission to tie my hair up and make it look 'normal,
they came down to a more serious conversation, the incident bout last night.
You could expect what questions they were asking me, and some lecturing.
After that, they went to investigate my tattooes.. Got me freaking paranoid!!
Than went to dig out some of my past, those cases they left untouch..
Like, forgery, injuring some guys, and using vulgarities on teacher..
But damn.. that was like so long ago, some were even 2 years ago man!
Oh *F*!! I forgot its the new principle... she suck core.
Hopefully she's not gonna dig all these out and bring back "justice".
Went back to class after a session of councelling. But it was'nt over yet.
I think i owed the OM some shit in my past life and he is back to take revenge ('_')"
He stood infront and told the whole class that i am underage,
yet werking at a night pub, bringing disgrace to the school, nonsensical job,
Calling me an ah lian, no self respect, setting a bad example and bla bla bla
like.. damn.. he dont know a shit and he is humilating me.
I didnt mean to scream back at him and get violence with the stationery objects around me..
Oh well.. don't wanna mention bout the incident in class. :/
It was one crazy day in school, I've not behaved like this before..
I didnt expect myself to loose control infront of so many people.
Home.. was no where better. Grandma actually called me a prostitude and washed her hands off me.
This hurts the most. I dont mind wat the hell is going on in my life,
I dont care how people look and think of me..
All i did.. eveything i do, was for her! But even now,
she's turning her back on me... And calling me names, harsher than outsiders do.
I just feel.. a sharp ache in my heart.. but wunt blame her..
Cause she didnt uderstand.. Oh well.. Thats just the way it is. Live with it.
Everthing will be alright.. :)

Make my way to the skatepark in the afternoon,
and made a clean boneless180 down the library 3 sets :D
Not as empty as the pass few days.
Aite.. second day of 30minute boardsliding session. Lol.
This time managed to slide *twice* a teeny bit and bail.
And the stupid Farhan was freaking annoying, screaming at me randomly.

Home sweet home with a couple of bruise,
went to dye my pink hair black.. @_@ Dammy damn damn :S

And got Potatoe to help me post these cause i cnt login to Blogger again!!1 >.<
Thanks potatoe :D

-Btw.. Mine was'nt a fake smile. Yours was.


Something new?
19 September 2007; Wednesday

So this was the encouraging skating plan between Nano and me.
If i start learning and attempting boneless 180/ ollie down 5 sets,
He will learn to bordslide down the funbox by the ramps. :)
Anyway, went to learn boardslide today. Gaaah!!!
Freaking scray >.< I suck man!! Lols..
Fell a couple of time without even sliding!


Get over it :D
18 September 2007; Tuesday

So taufiq came, returned him his chain.
The usual screamings and a tiny bit of violence with pushing.
When the hell well this whole thing be over man? lols.
Got down to skating after the hmmm.. oh well. usual arguments.
Went home early and Nano came to know bout me having to werk at the Pub.
The un-serious him, just as expected,
ask silly questions like why didnt i wanna do bar-top dance all that to earn more.
Cheekily teased him back and played along.
When i was about to leave, He told me to take care, with a really sincere look.
I dont know why.. but i feel happy.. yet weird.
Not expecting the friends around me, people like nano to care..
Even though we were un-serious most of the time.
i mean.. do you get what i mean?? Haaa ^^

Happy

... =D
17 September 2007; Monday

6:24am .. zZzz Just got home from my workplace.
Really Happy Yesterday,
Potatoe and 'Ash dar dar got me two baby hamster :D
Unexpected suprise.. Tottally touched and speechless~~
This two naughty hams gonna be really precious to me, more than my board.
Cause.. its from Potatoe & Alice, Whom im closest to, and kinda knows me the best,
lots of love and concerns and and.. haiyuer.. dunnoe wat to say, so touched.. almost cried >.<
Inreturn, gave them a promise, to throw my blades and stop cutting myself ^^
Its a Promise :)

....I'm really speechless..! don't know what to say...
I Love you 'Ash!!! I Love you too Potatoe!!
More than just thanks... Ahhh!!! -
I LoVe you!!!!! Love love love You TWo sooo much!!! :'}

Night came. Back to the underground low-class werkiing life..
I dont like it at all.. but for money, for a living, for my grandma..
what other choice do i have? Being underage and tight fer cash :/
Haiz.. Can't fall now.. have to stay strong and go on...


Signing out..
Preparing fer school now..
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Alice Dar Dar-
Oka oka.. i know u are kinda..'allergic' to emotional words..
But still.. thanks fer being by my side the past few months, through the up and downs
MAking me laugh always.. though we know for roughly 3 months..
WAIT!! 3 months!! Damn.. it felt like 3 years!!
Also... though you are *eh hem*..*small size*.. :x,
you're always there to protect me from jerks and bastards and Germs and Bacteria :p
And sorry that my weakness pull you down sometimes..
..I love you darling :]

&

Stupid Potatoe..
Ok la.. not so bad.. *for today only*

Sweetie Potatoe :p

*[Bang head on wall** Dunnoe what to say]*

Thanks fer..*haiyuer..paisae*
*--Eh hem-*



....... -_________-"


..Hao lah!!! @_@
Thanks for being so caring and concerned bout my life till now,
though you're my ex..lotsa memories.
If it happen to be other guys, they probably wud be laughin bout my pathetic life,
bringing myself down and all that stuff... They might not even give a damn bout me.
I know.. you are mr.nice guy.. always the sweetest.
But this time.. i feel so damned and guilty..
Thanks for everything poatatoe.... fer being there still, despite the past :'3

Simple

Simple
14 September 2007; Friday

Emo emo emo emo emo sucks! Haix.
Didnt slept at all last night.
Late morning, went to see Angeline and the rest cheer for the finals.
Walk home under the heavy rain.. Sweet :)
Went into a deep sleep when i got home.. woke up in the evening.
Headed to skate park to meet my hunnie buns Alice :D
Blue eye gave us backyard sticker.. YAY.. STICKERS!!
Hmm.. then went LJS with Alice, Potatoe and Errol.
laughing all the way... lalala.. Dont know why also -_-
Poor Potatoe.. kena hit by me so many times today.. HEhehe
Poor Errol, kena bullied by Alice and me.. MUAHAHA
Nothing much.. feeling much better today :)

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13 September 2007; Thursday

Felt like lying dead on muh bed..with nothing in my mind at all..
With music blasting from da radio.. Rowking sweet nothings.

Didnt want to meet TaufiQ.. but he's already under my void deck.
I was ignoring his existance, and sms my darling panty Alice.
Once and for more, wanna end everything today!
But he got..kinda touchy even though we are over.
Kick him hard and he pinched me reeaaall Hard!
Got fustrated and ticked him off !@#$%
He pushed me hard fer several times, i bite his fingers
and he pushed me again. Gay.
Ended up argueing.. and called me a crazy bitch..
When i admited "Yeah.. i am, so what?" in a bitchy tone..
He gave me a slap...
Silence. I broke the necklace he gave me.
He replaced the broken neaklace with his, and apologised. Drama!
Like i said.. nothing new. And.. he is nothing new either..
Though its the first tyme being hit by a guy.
Didnt speak all the way till nearing adventure park..
Told him im looking fer alice..
all he said was "u changed"
And all i replied was : Than just F*** off.
So we headed in different direction, from the place we first met.
Hope it will be the last tyme im seeing him.


At night.. he msg me telling his going to malaysia bout some Phantom conflicts.
Cool. IIts just another obvious lie. The real shit is.. He wanna MIA from me..
And make me think he got beaten up or killed in the fight over there.
The end? I hope so.

Midnight.. Crying again. So not cool.
I hate to cry.. without a reason.
Im weird.. why am i crying?
i dont know.
Been so many nights and weeks..
When will these stop?

Pathetic

Pathetic
12 September 2007; Wednesday

Got myself drunk last night in my room.
Came down with a slight fever and headache today.
Theres just too many things going on in my life
All the harsh Ups and Downs.
Its not that my life is pathetic..
Its me who is really pathetic!!
I cant hadle anything.. im like.. out of control..
Its driving me crazy.. Thats how Pathetic i am!!
A no life shit.. Gahhh!!!
Been like this for several days..
And i dont even know why the hell i ended up like this.
I suck!

bdae

Happy Birthday Potatoe!

Emptiness

Emptiness
11 september 2007; Tuesday

Didnt went to school today.
Been in my room since morning till now.
I feel.. so... empty inside.
Life seems to be in a mess.
I never had a mum.
Dad seems like a stranger now.
Taufiq kept bothering me.
My past kept haunting..
Theres' too many stuff going on..
So hard to let go.. I dont know.

All i kept.. was memories..
Seeing.. them, makes me.. smile :)

Click.. if u are not blood sensitive.
**My Bloody Site <- Click?

Nothing Goes Right

Nothing goes Right
10 september 2007; Monday

Today was horible.
Zulaiman tricked me to sniff perfume which turns out to be "Laughin Gas".;
Flying Chairs and Tables after school
I twist my ankle again, during dance practice;
Cant join the rest for this friday finals.. which ive been contributing for 2 years..
And its also one of my dream and passion :(
I.. saw him making out with a girl;
So dumb to actually belive he's trying his best to change.
So retarded to cry over that inccident.
Went for Extreme Re-tox at LJS;
Who cares bout being fat? Not gonna cheerlead anyway.
Cried my heart out while eating. so dumb..so dumb.. im dumb.
Lost my new mp3 i just bought today. O__O
Took off my bandage..
My feet is multi coloured with green black purple and red.Wow.
Went to see doc again... Haix.


Last night.. was... Happy? weird? ...very? -___-
Potatoe said sorry fer being mean...
And i was like.. errr.. wat to say? speechless.. :x


Ard 2am in da middle of da night.. Leon called me..
Look outside my carpark window.. saw Meow meow and Leon on orange bike.
Crazy.. i went back to sleep. Lols XD

Killer Pain

Killer Pain
9 September; Sunday

My ankle was swelling badly, couldnt rotate my feet nor jiggle my toes.
Around 3am.. got worst.. The pain slowy went up my thighs, than my spine.
Grrr.. crept annoying slowly to the toilet, moaning loudly with tears.
My maid jerk a little from her bed, and pretended to sleep o_o
The second time i went to the toilet.. i was giggling and laughin.
Kinda freaked her out.. (7 month stuff) Lols XD
I was laughin, because i find myself retarded, crying over a sprained ankle.
The pain cant be compared with the last few injuries i got..
But this tiny sprained ankle kinda getting serious.. :[
Fell asleep 7am in the morning.
Halfway through my snores, my grandma sneaked into my bed room,
'investigating my foot. My first reaction was spring up from bed and scream loudly.
Damn!! just imagine u wake up and suddenly, an old lady from nowhere is holding your feet!!!
My grandma sceamt too.. and shout..: SIAO AHH!!! ..aka... [crazy ah?]
Thinkin back was hilarious .Lols
Wanted to go tampinese get some stuff for birthday boi..
But..damn.. cant get out from bed :[
Late noon, Taufiq barged into my room.. i was tottally shocked .. and.. unexpected!? O_O
I was like.. in Pyjamas.. half asleep!!!!
He got me a super big zero jacket and carried me out from home and brought me to the doc.
And i didnt know my ah ma actually spoke to him last night and he had the permision. WTH!!!
She knows i dont like him!!! Dunnoe wat da hell is going on man!
Than the doc bla bla bla.. say i cant skate for atleast 2 months :S
Fine!! im still gonna skate after i get better. Haiyuer!
Went to catch a movie, had our dinner, headed to the skatepark.
Damn retarded!! He was carrying me all the way.. and i've got no mood at all!
Its not ROMANTIC ok.. its tottally Fucked up!!!
On da way home, force myself to get off from his arms,
Twist my ankle and fell.. DAMN DAMN DAMN!! Hurts!!!
Ticked him off.. didnt want him to touch me.. crept home slowly.
Finally im home sweet home. didnt talk to my ah ma.
Still pissed about wat happen in the afternoon :(

Emoes

Emoes?
8 september 07; Saturday

Chatted with Kiane Pootie till 5am O_O
Than got to know he is one jackass .. and WEIRDO
He also shared his skateboarding history. Inspired me alot :D
He is really nice though. Haax. Just a lil too cheeky ~_~

Lazy afternoon, went to skate.
My Honey panty Alice came. She was damn damn emo!!
Some sort of Depression that guys will never understand.
Its a kind of feeling when.. You aint troubled by anything..
Yet you feel so lost.. and think life is meaningless.
Sucide is always the first thought.
Dun ask why we girls are weird... i dont know the answer.
Just like.. why Guys needs to masturbate almost everyday? why?
So yeah.. dun ask why ;)

Got down to skate.. feeling uncomfortable. Alice voice is missing..
She would usually be blabbering, asking me to try this, try that...
encouraging me to skate and improve in my skills.
Kinda queit.. plus the emo atmospher in da park..equals to.. dead mood to skate.
Ok lah.. im not That emo okay!! I'm still trying to ollie higher down the stage,
and constant my boneless 180s. but tottally ruined!
Rez and me got off the stage together. I was doing a "boned - boneless"
Something like bone ollie.. but old school type. Ok.. its all crap..
its an Accident you dumb dumb!
So i landed on my left foot, twisted 180, with a 360 degree crackin noise.
And i thought i'm gonna die >.<
Alice darling nursed me with lots of love and swetness.
But fierce.. she kept forcing me to put ice..
and i was like.. HELL NO!!!
Chill a little. Alice started shouting at Spiderpig aka Kajua aka Luke.
wooh!! Thats so her!
Anyway, Taufiq was sitting near-by, but he used Sms to communicate.
He told me he was afraid of Alice.. WTH -___-
After chilling awhile, Alice left.. and i know she's not gonna be alright :/

...Taufiq kept requesting for a dinner.
Haiya.. he came all the way from sembawang.. busted him yesterday..
so.. should'nt be soo bad to him today. His still my ex lover afterall.


Hunnie buns Panty Alice.. I love you :D

Bastard

Bastard
5 september 07; Wednesday

Taufiq is trying too hard to get my attention..
Motor accident? Heart disease? Fights? Cuts?
How many more lies and stories do you wanna edit?
Does it make you happy when i feel guilty and paranoid bout you?
Caring and being by your side out of sympathy.. but without love?

Im sick of you pretending to be good to muh friends..
Making them think you are a 'nice dude'.. and wunt do such a thing on me.
My image gone slut bacause of your bastard lies and sympathetic stories you've made up.
Go get a life and stop acting like an emotional loving baby.
Stop making me confused!!! Just.. FUCK OFF!!!
and leave me alone!!!

Happy One Month Of Agony

Happy one month of Agony
1 september 2007; Saturday

He left a teddy bear at my doorstep. I dont know wat was his intentions.
We already broke up, but he is still bothering me with Gifts and sweet words.
Went looking all over for him feeling so confused.
Oh well.. its just a big bear.. from that jerk, so what to do with tat piece of shit? Skate obstacle!
Threw it on the floor, ollied and boneless over it. Some others joined in.
Than Saiful took the bear and threw it on top of da roof.
I went totally blank.. okayyy... Its gone for real now.
Wanted to forget bout everything and skate, but i cant stop my tears from falling.
Didnt want to cry infront of so many ppl. Ran out and went to some void decks to cool down.
Than some rollerbladding kids came over to comfort me.
They kept asking why.. and i told them a Big brother lied to me.
Little Girl: Nevermind.. i ask my mumy to scold him!
Tottally awwwwed.... They are so young, naive, innocent and sweet.
Made my way back to skatepark, saw alice looking for me. Oops =X
Didnt realise Taufiq was at the park all along, at the far end corner.
Approached him, and he ran away. Chased after him. Damn retarded.
We played hide and seek for a couple of hours before i gave up.
BAck to the park, trying hard to get back the teddy bear.
Hamtie: Its just a bear afterall
Blandon: To you may be nothing. To him its something.
Hamtie: If its nth to me, why would i try so hard to get the bear back?
Blandon took the bear and skate off. Chased after him.
After Brian and Blandon left Taifiq and me alone.. finally got to talk face to face after one week.
His sweet talks doesnt work.. but his tears makes me melt.
Even though i felt so weak, i forced myself to be harsh. I just had to let go.
Thrash out all the bastard stuff he did... and said
- I dont love you anymore
He cried again.. and i dont know what to do.
He asked if i had a new guy. Thinkin now's the only chance to make him let go,
I told him i like Brian alot.. Before, during, and after our relationship.
At the point.. he broke down again. So after all the up and downs,
I was the one who end up crying bitterly while he was trying to console me -.-
So we made a promise. He promise to leave, and i promise to keep the bear.

Its over. Yeah... Over...
3 years of cyber stuff. 1 month of Reality.

Anyway.. Sorry Brian. For using you as a lie. Hope you understand :S


Damn... I cried so loudly infront of so many people today >_<

Guy Behind the Mask

Guy behind the Mask
31 August 2007; Friday

After cheerleading, went tamp to browse around for Brians' Bdae present,
and get some knives blades and razor at the same time.
At the piercing gallery, caught sight of a navel stud.. Love at first sight.
Could'nt resist, bought it for 38 buck >_<
Went to skate as the usual friday.
Kien and his jackass friends came.. They stripped themselve naked in the middle of the park,
skate and do video. DAMN!!
Alice went: SMALL and i Went: TINY!!!
F*CK... we lost our virgin of dick sighting!!!!
Those strippers shows no respect to Girls and themself. Attention seekers, F*cking disgusting. Reatards.
Niwae.. Kiens' rather a nice guy. Haaa
And luke is really sweet to alice XD


30 August 2007; Thursday

DAMN!!! I'm so awake right now!! I've seen through everything!
Can't belive Ah Paii is that kind of guy :(

We fell out last night, but this morning he still call me Baby, honey and all that, eew.
Didnt reply a single msg since last night after the breakup.
But in class.. still feeling down, looking at our pictures, readin his messages, deleting them one by one
Thinking back how we used to be.. where we first met.. the sweet things we did, promises we made. Memories.
I cant explain this feeling... its weird. I wanna forgive him, but that would make things worse.
Since im freed ... i should'nt go back anymore. But i kept looking back, asif i left somthing behind.
Indeed.. i left one last thing. Knowing the True Him.

He told Nadra that i begged him for sex.. He didnt want to,
but he did it just to make me happy.........!!!
Jerk!! And fu*k... Damn bustard! Tottally disgusted =(

He Said: I wanted to have sex and i beg him for it.
The Truth: He wanted to have sex and force me for it !!!!

He Said: He kissed my neck, i got high. Being responsible, he stopped. He dunwan to do the 'wrong' thing.
The Truth: He was all over me, forcing to take off my clothes. He stopped when i got frightened and started to cry.

Trying too hard make me sound like some slut desperate for sex.. Damn Fu*king bastard.

Forgive.. but will never forget.

* I was blind and dumb for 3 years, having a crush on a cyber skaterboi
* And for three years, he have been lying and lying. About his past, his life, and himself.
* 1 August 07, when i was in my weakest.. and have no one by my side. He picked me up.
* We became cyber stuff to reality
* 1 week of sweetness and honeymoon.
* On our second date, he argued, scolded, humilated and screamt at me, outside cineleisure.
* I didnt walk away.. because he didnt walk away when i needed someone. Tat was a big mistake.
* On our third date,his friend suggest Gangbang.
* He told me he fell out with his friend. But i dont know what were the conversation they really had.
* On our forth date... He tried to force a sex.
* Lost faith, lost trust.. guys are all the same.
* The day after we broke up, he went ard tellin ppl it was me who begged him fer sex.
* He kept pesperin me. He is psycho.. crazy.. i dunnoe.
* But one thing i know. I dont love you anymore. =)

Thanks nadra... I could have foolishly forgave him thinkin he really LOVE me..
Love is seriusly.. tottally.. fucking blind.
And i cant figure out why the hell would i ever be so dumb and naive.. damn. so not me.

The Sucide

29 august 2007; Wednesday

Grandma came into my room, waking me up for school.
She sreamt when she saw blood all over my bed and wall,
with razor blades all over the floor.
I was too weak to say - Dun worry, im ok.
She was crying and holding me tight, until the ambulance came.
I'm use to blood, leakin out from my cuts.
Just that this time was a little more deeper and bloodish.
Force myself back to school after the nurse got my cuts cleaned.
Teachers councelled me, principle assign me to see a shrink.
After school, when Mr Nison and Mr tan walked pass me,
Mr Tan whispered: ..Ham changed so much
I dunnoe what that means. But its bothering me.
Ah paii keep wanting to see me. While i ignored.
And theres a list of 80 - 100 miss calls.
Chill with nadra at the playground. Lotsa stuff going on.
Its always hard to let go, if u ever fell inlove with tat someone.
Hmm...Have to keep reminding and forcing myself to face up to reality,
Dun be too indulge with all the sweet words.. and lie to myself tat he is mr nice MAT.

Got home, Grandma brewed some weird chinese medicine. DANG!!
Felt weak and tired.. but didnt want to lock myself in the room and start being emo-natic.
Took my deck, went off to skate park to meet Panty.
She always have her weirdest way to make me laugh... :D

Life Of Ours

In our Skateboarding Life
9 August 2007; Thursday

Skated at Somerset and youth park today.
It was a warm and lazy afternoon,
Alice, Jave and me were just cruising and chilling around with our skateboard.
We decided to change our skating spot, cause we did'nt want to get into the other skaters' way.
Headed to the back of the ramp, giggling and chatting away..
Pulling off all sorts of lazy tricks without effort.
Then a group of foreign Skaters came by.
They actually looked down on us and gave sarcastic remarks.
We can't do anything, we got no big tricks to show off either, all we could do is swallow up such a disgraceful remark.
But, funny to say, those guys whom looked down on us was'nt that good in their skates either.
Jave did her No Comply 180, b/s shove, some old school 360s' and nosemanual to shove out,
While i did my fak Finger-flip, bone-less 180, manual to shove, pop shove and some silly grabs.
Just enough to impress the Big Ego Skaters with a Big O on their face -(as alice mentioned) *a secret evil smile* ;]
Of course we girls didnt walk away with a snub proud bitchy face..
We *acted friendly with a wide smile and headed off to Youth park, back to our lazy afternoon attitude.

Night came, and the sounds of Fireworks started to blast..
All the skaters look up the sky, hoping to see some fiery flowers..
But all we could see were the flashes. Everything fade and calmed after several minutes.
While Alice and me were chatting, Cody dropped by..
Started with a tiny conversation, ended with a Devasting Love Story and i almost cried.
Alice patted me on my knees with that 'Oh.. its your turn soon'. (jk)
Well.. Somehow.. friendship last longer than Love.
And whenever we are lost, angry, fustrated and don't know what to do..
Just pick our skateboard and ...let go.
Cody borrowed my board and played s-k-a-t-e with his friends..
His smile came back.
He fell a couple of times..
Alice and me faced each other and started to whisper out,
'In skateboarding.. we fall'
Cody stood up.. and continued the game
'Stand up again... learn from our mistakes.. and never give up'
*smiles* .. Thats life

Cyber Love
1 July 2007; Wednesday

I love you, I miss you, I need you, and i will always be there for you.
Two and da half years past like that, and these sweet words still continues.

Its weird to realise such unrealistic Love last longer than the relationships I've been though.
Last night, Ah Paii and Me were 'Officially Married' in this Love Game in friendster.
Although we have not met.. [Only once, across the streets..kinda drama *haha*]
But there is something called the ultimate Cell Phone..
Each text message received..
Made me felt that he have always been in all my daily lives
and no longer a stranger to be.
So maybe and perhaps.. this is a little experience in part of my life..

Cyber lovers have almost no conflicts, no secrets to hide and talk about almost eveything.
Even quarrelling doesnt hurt so much. cause its all in a square texting screen.. Hohoho

So my conclusion is... Promote CYBER LOVE NATION!!!
-To ppl who dont intend to get married and getting hurt by Love*

Forgery

Forgery
31 July 2007; Tuesday

Despite knowing the fact that its a criminal offence
And the consequence to bear is very serious
I still took a risk towards this slim chance,
and gave it to Miss Oh.

Tears of anger rushed into my eyes,
when Miss Oh took me out of class
Cause i already know i lost,
and the un-imaginable consequences would be coming my way
in the most unexpected days.

Walking back to class, holding back my tears,
I dont want my classmate to see another side of me.
But the way they cared and comforted me..
I just cant be strong anymore.

Because my mind was overwhelmed by mockery and all the problems i had recently,
I just turned blank with thoughts of sucide in my mind.
But i know it wont work out,
cause there's many things i cant bear to leave behind...

While i was writing my statement, my heart got weaker.
Cant belive an inked pieced of paper could lead me to this state.
All in my mind was'nt the heavy punishment im gonna face..
But thinking of words to seek for Grandma's forgiveness.

Mr.Lee, the father of students, spoke to me.
' Because i only know.. All childs were'nt born to be Bad"

He asked if i had a close friend to share my problems with
I couldnt think of one.
Cause i had only shared joy and laughters with all my friends.

He asked about my Family
And came to know my parents divorced,
Dad started a new family at thailand, and visits me thrice a year
Mum had a family too, but that was when i'm two
and ive yet to see her before.

His eyes turns a slightly red..
' I know how you feel.. cause i've once been you.
My dad passed away when i was 4 months old,
But lucky to have a strong mum whom brought us up.
Everytime in school, when i see Dads picking their kid up
I was asking myself.. where dad went.
When a dad cares for his child..
I want to call out for Dad..
But who can i call out to...?"

"you missed your mum"

Uncontrollable tears came down automatically.
There was a mix of Miss, Hate, love, Fear and anger
causing a confusion in me.

Down the road, i would be having many obstacle to face.
But Mr Lee made it simple.. and showed me the one by one road

"tommorow, you do your suspension from class, and detention after school,
The rest, leave it to the school. concentrate in changing into a better person first"

"and promise me.. not to do it again"

I went home, things didnt turned out as expected.
Grandma didnt scold or went crazy..
She just told me.. no matter what happen, she would be by my side.
That was my wish in class today when mr Gun told us
"When khidir commited an offence, his Father said
:Please dun let my son get heavy punishment"
The whole class was touched.

Alone in my room.
A me, A knife, and a decission.
I've thought it so long..
Why should i kill myself.. to run away...
i didnt want to face it either.
But i wanted a dead feeling, so i could reborn in illusions.
I stabbed myself not to kill,
but to ink my mothers' name.
I cant have her in reality..
So her name shall stay with me till my very last breath.

Bad Day

Not a nice day
25 July 2007; Wednesday

Had a deep cut on my knee and thighs, thanks to wheel bites.
went to chill at adventure park..
After taking some sweet video from Amin,
Headed to the street and skate at 421 stage.
Out of the blue, an egg fell from the sky.. wtf
Two more eggs fell, and we headed to 428 stage instead.
First time attempted ollie down the 6 step stage(ledge?)..
Freakin high.. and theres' a drain gap ..
Anyway.. didnt manage to land of course! haha
Nano did an Indy down the stage..
Bad split, and wrecked his knee cap.
Wonder how he is doing now.

...

20 July 2007; Friday

Todays' Racial Harmony..

So as usual, went to skate on this lovely friday afternoon,
preparing for tommorows' filming.
Damn.. the script was changed, The time had also changed!
From 10:30am to 8pm!!!
Anyway.. yup.. nothing much.. just trying to constant all my tricks.
Twisted my back while doing boneless 360..
Sprained my wrist just by picking up my deck
And sprained my upper tigh because of the tupid impact of olle-ing 3 sets
I didnt know i was that Fragile -.-
Argh.. and the pain is not going away... o.o
In the evening, potatoe came with... an injured elbow.. BLOOD!!!
And blanjared Alice and me bubble tea ^^
Lights out, went to skate at the library with the two Ang Moh.
Amin broke his deck.. and the ang moh took out 55 buck for him to buy a new one.
All of us have this Big eyes "w-t-f" face written all over..
Damn... Those ang moh are really generous..!
My heart melted.. tottalled 'awwwed~~

Grab a bite at MAc with Alien 1 and 2..
Home sweet home..

*Its time to confess..

ollie

Ollie
12 July 2007; Thursday

Yea ya.. Saiful kept forcing me to ollie higher down the 3 sets.
Managed to get one really sweet ollie down 3 sets after a few try,
and the last try... with full confidence, 'somersault' down..
damn... My head, my hips.. my sholder =.=
And the rest kept laughin at me... saying i fell like a barbie doll. wtf

Progress

Progress
11 July 2007; Wednesday

Wanted to progress in my skates..
But these few days kinda no mood =/
Managed to ollie down the 5 sets stage at 421 =D
and also got a bad bruise on my right elbow.. Hahaa
But its all worth it...
Atleast im startin to take out a second level in skating :)

Naufal sux

Beat Naufal Up!

Saturday

30 June 2007; Saturday

The past few days.. counting up to weeks,
havent really been skatin.
Cruise around taking videos for friends. :)
Not much of improvement..
Except for ollie 180 and 360 shove,
which im struggling hard to get em right.

Two Newest Clip

Kids at bowl
Azree Boardslide trial



Blandon Had his really cute haircut..
Look like a monk on skateboard.
I swear he will look damn fugly when he give us an emo face. Haha
So better smile you little monk.

Alice and me were having burping contest..
And it rained due to our burbs evaporation.
Than i saw 'xss wateva' shoe..
Damn cool. i dunnoe how to describe..
You have to check it out, explore and know what i mean.

...........--- >>XXX

Today

Met Nano.
We are the only people occupying the entire skatepark!
Niwae.. he really is a gentleman.
He automatically moved away when he realise his smoke is movin towards me.
All guys should learn from him :]

I scrapped my left ankle and wrecked my left elbow.
Guess what big trick i did?
ollie down a curb, wheels got stucked,
fell against the rough carpark road and hit a sweet metal post.

Nothing

Another day
25 June 2007 Monday

School? Alright, not a very bad start.
Fell asleep during math lesson,
got praised instead of being punished. wow

Umm.. went to skate during the late afternoon.
No one at all, except Saiful Darling, Lan and Freddy.
Freddy was wearing the same shirt as me.. Zero. lol
Anyway.. today i look super aunty, cause i didnt doll up like i used to,
plus my hair was bundled up like ah ma. hahaha

Second time in my entire life, landed ollie to manual to shovit =D
And Kickflip +DDD !!!! WOOOOHHH!!! but just once -_-
Damn happy :D

...

24 june 2007; Sunday

Okay... well done, waited for jave and rest for 3 hours..
And... they went missing under fairy dust or sumthing?? hohoho
Aniwae, skated bridge with my brother.. damn..
he is irritating, whom irritates me and get me so irritated.
Lotsa Unglam hand gestures and screamings of vulgarities in all language under the peaceful bridge.
Nothing much going on..
Except for coming up with new lyrics like the olden times with Gab and others.
Weishen went to another far end watch people fishing.. wtf..
And i sat under the bridge and started anyhow singing outa boredom.

Damn... i dunnoe how i came out with those nice nice sentences..
Its just the atmosphere and going ons ard me..
Some walk pass and stop a few distance away from me,
as if im those road show emo lonely singers. wtf... hahaha



He changed overnight.
suddenly with formality and seriousness..
as if im a stranger......

Go Skate Day

Go Skate Day
23 June 2007; Saturday

Free Pizza, Free drinks.. and many skaters.. woooh!
There was tic tac race, longest manual and s.k.a.t.e
After that, bolo, hanafie and the other pro did the handrails demo.
Its (censored) awesome!!
Poor Fareez..(the small tiny pro skaterboi)..
Some bastard skater buang and his head was bleeding like wth.
There were quite a number of girls too :)
Played skate with shoehorn.. and we were equalled. haha
And i won over Gabriel.. MUAHAHAA!!!
Anyway.. the riders were super irritating today..
Especially Farhan and Kelvin..
They keep saying i am Fat ... wtf -__-
8pm onwards.. more skaters left for Fengshan and towns.
Made up a stylo manual for alice..
Well.. you know.. while manualing, point your 2 middle fingers at the same time.
Yeap.. it suited her. hahahaa
Around 9 plus, Jave called me over to the stage and introduced some skaters.
I went there and a Guy handed me a Bunch of stickers!!
WOW!!! Its like, one sticker cost bout 10 to 20 buck,
and now.. i have a handful of stickers on my right palm!
Got to know the japanese skater girl,
skatin with her and the altrex owner tml.WOOO!
The rest left, leaving Jave, weishen, Tiffany and me behind.
jave hard cored.. she fell and skate..and landed rock and roll stuff. WOW
we chatted until lights out, relax awhile and went home sweet home.
The irritating bikers again!
They said BYE, and it was so freakin dark and i dunnoe who the hell said bye.
and they just continued saying bye bye bye bye... like parrots. wtf -_-

I ate 2 cheesburgers today.
The yummy chessy delicious sensation is deep in my mind..
Damn.. i want Cheese burger tml!! =D

Valuable Lesson

A Valuable Lesson
4 June 2007; Monday

10 things men know about women:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10. WOMEN HAVE BOOBS

Dear Cousin

Dear Cousin
4 June 2007; Monday



Dear Cousin..
I kinda..umm.. had a great stay in your house the last few weeks?
well.. I Hope that you hope that i say a Yes
I wunt forget your kindness;
For blessing me 50 buck after loosing my old dirty ragged sk8board,
dumbed at a side and got stolen by some lucky bangala.
I wunt forget your laughter;
Your smile is sweet.. but your laughin is scary
Sometimes.. i dun even know why you are laughin..
Sometimes.. you arent even laughin.. you were a....
Retarded, opening your mouth widely makin weird loud noises,
rolling on your belly like a crazy panda.
I wunt forget the first night.. you said you miss me
I wunt forget the second night.. you said you were bored
I wunt forget the third night.. we plan to meet the next day and go joging at 7am.
I wunt forget the forth day.. i busted you.
Last but not least...
I wunt forget your shyness;
How you reacted when i booed at you.

from your evil cousin. HO Ho Ho

Late

Late
31 May 2007; Thursday

Poor Alice waited for me in skate park for one and da half hours
Poor little thing.. Dun be sad.. i wunt abandon you...

Ok.. in a more approperate word: Sorry

Laughs

Laughs
30 May 2007; Wednesday

Not much happening.
This afternoon, i was feeling kinda Grouchy..
Especially towards phone calls.

At night, entertained myself watching some stupid videos..
Laugh till stomach cramp... Hahahaaa..

Phony Photobooth Prank
Phony Photobooth Prank 2
The 100 People
Rmb this M1 ad?

Sleepy

Sleepy
22 May 2007; Tuesday

School is my sleeping heaven.
I slept throughout the lessons,
including skipping recess and went to zZz
Woke up at 12 pm.. still feeling sleepy.

Went to skate,
on the way to bus stop..
saw sam, syahid and emo(forgot his name =X)
Emo played some catchy tunes on his guitar..
its still as sweet as before =)
Than sam ride on my board with his slipper
and still able to do a couple of trick o.o
Reach skate park late noon.
You know what..? Zahirs' Hair sucks!!! HAHAHA!!!
Nothing much going on..
I still suck at kick-flip =.=

Made a fool of myself on the way home in bus.
The sleepy head infront of me fell asleep,
and his head fall to another guys' shoulder..
It gave the DAMN GAY impression,
and the victim was damn paisae.. cannot wake the sleepy head up.
I started giggling at first,
and laughed like some retarded... -__-'

Girls

20 May 2007; Sunday

Go Skater Girls!!

Calculation

Calculation
18 May 2007; Friday

I got a new Deck for $250
From Chiefs' Shop

Thanks Jun, For tipin in $30
Thanks Ex Kakis, for sponserin $4 each
Thanks Grandma.. For $20
and thanks Michelle... for your blessing me $50 =)

Lost

Lost
15 May 2007; Tuesday

I lost my skateboard.
I wailed in public.
I hugged the lamb post crying.
I lost my hamster.
I went insane (almost)

Skater Girls on the Run

Skate Girls on the Run
13 May 2007; Sunday

Our first destination was CityLink.
PLaying with manuals and nosemanuals,
Than one of a kinda Neighbourhood Very Friendly Senior Citizen..
Fat oldie : You youngster are destroying the property of the government
Fareez: Yeah ya... we leaving soon.

The Fat oldie went up the escalater,
Took out his mobile and called the police,
giving them full description of each and every of us.
We walk up the stairs, and passed by the oldie

Oldie : Bla Bla Bla Bla ..
Hamtie: Duh give us the snub face.. you are lucky we respectin cha..
Oldie : Bla Bla Bla Bla
Bob : Shut up la Fcuk!
And eveybody shut up.. including the oldie. Scary ~~

Met up with Jolyn at Somerset.
The Other skater girls were a terror!
People like jave and Alicia fell from the ramp,
With a PHAH, their flexible body bouncing off the ground..
Its so damn ouch but.. they do it again!
Thats the Spirit! [Im not into it yet -.-]
I never in my life play with ramps
eversince i wreck 4 of my bones at bedok halfpipe.

Alicia was like some sort of really cool ah lian skater.
We went HELLO louder and louder,
she ask me why this why that,
and even 'Eh your neh neh how big ah? B cup or C Cup'
I was tottally shut by her question and gave her a cold stare o.o

Its actually kinda fun lah..
There's like 6-7 skater girls all over the park.
But none of us could make it to the name of "Pro" -.-



Gonna miss skating a whole real lot!!
Cause i wud seldom be skatin until mid june or sumthing..
So i wud be hardly seen on the streets or park. =[


And.. i lost my mobile on the run!!

Mobile

Mobile
11 May 2007; Friday

Last night, came to know Problem-Child was beaten up and admitted to the hospital.
I've been in his mobile for two and the half years as a high technology Best Friend.
Sounds cool huh?
But all i could do is text him sweet messages..
Without actually being right there for him all these time.
I didnt intend to meet him just yet..
Cause what if things become different from today onwards?

Made my way to Sembawang,
intending to post the belated valentines present personally..
I was so 100% sure that we wont be able to see each other cuz
he is on his way to school when im still on da train.
Plus.. i went round many wrong directions
Until an ah ma told me the right way.

Walking along the pathment..
Saw a familiar guy rushing towards the station..
I looked at him, than he look at me..
We walk pass each other from a distance..
...No.. that cant be him. i told me.
And the next moment.. Problem child dialled my mobile.
I went blank and picked up his call..
He is actually just across the road away from me..

[The last phrase of the story.. you can guess, edit and create yourself]

Do i still belive in fate?

That skater Girl

That skater Girl
10 May 2007; Thursday

I felt like a tottal newb skating at petal garden.
And jolyn is damn funny .. haha!
Its not really bad to Scream when i land an ollie manual..
But she screamt and run in circles when she land a shove-it on the grass!! LOL
Than, she wanted to learn drop-in
[At that pathetic 2 set slope]
She was in a drop-in position, still thinking if she should take the risk..
And i dunnoe why the hell i join her and did the drop-in possition.
(btw.. i'm actually afraid.. kinda =X)
I told myself that.. 'Come on la.. its just a slope!! I'm not gonna die when i fall,
Plus im already standing here.. cant possibly chicken out over a tiny..SLOPE!!!
And there i went.. weeeee... [not even 1 second]
Jolyn praised that im brave..
I was like.. - if only it was a real drop-in!!
After awhile.. Jolyn heck care and went down..[suceed]
her expression- Cheh.. afterall not scary at all.. bla bla bla
Second attempt.. she fell down -___-
Cant stop laughing.. haha!!
She's really funny lah.. !!!
Went to void deck and warm-up before going to adventure.
umm k.. the end.

I got sacked

F.U.N

F.U.N
6 May 2007 Sunday

What is Fun?
Let me Spell it for you

F is for friends who do stuff together
U is for you and me
N is for Anywhere and anytime at all
Down her in th big blue sea~~




Arent they cute =D

Ollie

Ollie
5 May 2007; Saturday

I Landed Ollie-ing down the ledge at Tenaga =D
[alirite.. just for once.. in my entire life]

I will do better tommorow =)

swet 16

Sweet Sixteen
27 April 2007

Birthday[Birth-date], is the day I came to this world,
Thanks to both my young and wildful parents,
Whom created me by mistake.

Although i never had a Family before...
But I'm still happy,
Because I am blessed with everything I Need, I have it =]

Child-Like

Child-Like
16 March 2007; Fridae

Raining does'nt stop me from skating ;)
Went to the multi storey car park.
Played catching with our skateboard.
Missing those days when i was still a kid.
I got caught twice.
And whenever im running away from the predator..
I never fail to scream and screech like hell.
-The End-

Dear Problem Child,
You and me are always the misundertanding between each other lovers. =P

Aimlessly

Aimlessly
14 March 2007; Wednesday

Was walking around the cities aimlessly wif my uniform,
Holding a tiny bottle of milk, having the straw in my lips.
No longer Bam, made myself a piece of diamond Tag; Ham.
The 6th time this week, being called a barbie doll on D' Street.
Oh, but tis doll gives attitude shit.

Late afternoon went skate park,
Learnt some spin and wheels tricks.
Somehow friendship bonded with skaters dressed like Mats,
Mobile numbers exchanged and stored in memories.

Dangerous

Dangerous

27 January 2007; Saturday

Journey to City Link..
More than Fifty skaters conquered the marble floor,
and only 3 skater girls existed.
Hamtie , Jolyn , Jave .
Was cramped with BMX riders and breakdancers, Grrr
Jolyn landed her first boneless todae =D

Blandon was about to leave with kiwee and Naufal,
Jolyn and me were reachin for our deck,
preparin to skate awhile more before we leave.
Than someone start shouting 'FIVE O, FIVE O!!!'
Five O means Police. Skaters' Code.
Next thing i know, all 50 skaters chiong towards the 2 exits,
Everbody Panicked, luckily we were near the escalater.
I only know when i was running up the escalater,
The police was soo damn close to me,
He was screaming so loud my eardrums almost burst. Fartin Police!.
Out from city link, ran with my head down inside a length of bush,
Chiong out, in the middle of the traffic runway,
All of us almost got killed in car accidents, but we were safe.
Blandon was separated from us,
He was the few unlucky 4 skaters whom got caught.
So woah.. kinda exciting, thrilling, and frightening. Thats life.
Ok, and for what i heard, some skaters threw their deck at the police,
some got hit up on the wall violencly by the cops,
and yah. thats all. I wonder how the hell that fat ass cop run that fast... !!

Dad

Dad

15 January 2007; Monday

Dad:
Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating
Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating Quit Skating
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30 Years Later

Hamtie:
I will not Quit Skating I will not Quit Skating
I will not Quit Skating I will not Quit Skating
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Magical Evening

Magical Evening
7 January 2007 ; Sunday

I saw a shooting star.
Dropped my deck, close my eyes, hold my hands, smiled..
And made a wish ..**

Tears of Christmas Eve

Tears Of Christmas Eve
24 december 2006[obviously]

Skate at town today...
It rained, so made our way to city link.
Went to the raffles Bridge
And this is where all the Craps began.
Umm.. take a look at the pics below to understand the term..CRAPS

Singapore Female Pro Skater: Hamtie Hamta;
Indying over Gavin. But Blandon is desperate for christmas present,
Saw hamtie as a passing a reindeer, jumped on her,
she fell, crashed on Gavins' head..
his head cracked, landed in hospital, with 11 stitches.
In coma now. merry x'mas.


Blandon doing Boneless over Hamtie.
Hamtie doing the Matrix.

'We have Joy, we have fun, we have sorrows in the sun rain'

Blandon started the day with some ridiculous family problems of Privacy Invasion.
He fell out with his mum, and got kicked out from home.
I dialled my Grandma, hoping she wud accept him for one night.
The usual quarrelling heat up..
Why the hell family heatin up world war four.. even during the eve of christmas.
Christmas may be nothing to non-christian adults,
but its night-mare to destroy the fantasy thoughts we youngsters have for X'mas.
They dun understand us.. really.
So just shut your fucking mouth, and stop pretendin u adults really understands us.

He reminded me what i had last christmas.
Being locked up.. and nobody even cared to bail me out.
Well.. sorry Blandon.. i couldnt do anything to help.
Niwae.. after an hour, he fake a smile and we continued our journey for christmas eve.

Wei shen seem to just came out from Jalan Kayu or something?
He talked non-stop the whole day..
Craps bout ghost.
but we didnt bother about his presence though.
luckily i had Gavin to take over me.. listen to wei shens' craps.

Went to City Link to skate awhile.
Damn loads of pros.
Though its my first time touchin on Pop Shove-it,
but still landed a couple of times.
Unfortunatly, Blandon twisted his ankle,
Wei Shen sprained his toe (watever)
I did some ollies and the impact hurt my swollen ankle.
Around 9pm, set off to Bedok for supper at KFC.

That Wei Shen uh.. he really piss me off!!!
I was taking my order, and he keep askin me dunnoe what set meals,
he confused me and i have to repeat my orders many times.
Out of the blue.. he kicked my injured ankle!!
I gave him that face impression That
THIS is my LEFT foot you idiot.
He open his mouth widely.. and kicked me again!!!!!
ROAR!! wanna bite him.. but im taking control and be nice to baddies this christmas.
Tottaaly annoyed by his monkey behaviour,
i gave that all squeezed up look' on my face,
and tears filled me eyes. The Gerl takin my order gave me a face expression
'ehmm.. are you crying.. no no.. pls dun cry..'
I was crying with anger in a ridiculous Hilarious scene. watever.

I almost died when he join us for supper after takin his order.
The stupid conversation started again.
Terrence house became Terror House.
Condo-Minium became Condom- Mini.
He and his sing-a-lish.

Part 2.
There was a mirror hanging right opposite me,
and i ask myself ' how come today my Bra Strip always seh-niek sia
I fixed it back.. and

Blandon : Aye.. come on la, we are eating, somemore we are all boys

Hamtie : Im just talking bout stuff made from clothes rite

Than he talk bout G-string stuck in womens' ass.. which is actually painful sometimes.
Lots of stupid conversation la.. lol!
I was eating, chokin in my throat, laughin till i almost fell off the chair, cried, till i cannot breath.
Almost died for that!
Had stomach cramp after awhile, and they continued making me laugh like some insane shit.

Ok.. around 10:30pm, went to street skate around bedok.
If it werent raining, i wud try higher heights. hehe..
Went under block to skate, than got one ah peh shout at us from the other block.
slack.. listen to christmas song.. sing chrismas carols,
good nite sweet dreams, good bye hugs.. home sweet home.

Although Tears of Fears and Unpleasant past came crashing back,
Thanks to Great friends like Wei Shen, Blandon and Gavin,
whom sacrifice their time skating through the rainy chritmas eve..
Sharing craps, gigglings, tears, fears, sorrows, stories, lame shit, pain, support, care, and laughin till i fell off my chair.
These which happen all in one particular imperfect day, which we made it perfect.. somehow.
If only jolyn was there.
Friends forever.. skater for life.

So yups.. christmas eve...
for now..
merry christmas everyone.
Hopefully tml doesnt rain.. may tml be a better day.

And blandon.. dun catch a cold out there


*I was here on 12 september 07
Miss those days... Everyone left.. Except fer Blandon
Hope we can celebrate the next christmas together again :)