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13 September 2007; Thursday

Felt like lying dead on muh bed..with nothing in my mind at all..
With music blasting from da radio.. Rowking sweet nothings.

Didnt want to meet TaufiQ.. but he's already under my void deck.
I was ignoring his existance, and sms my darling panty Alice.
Once and for more, wanna end everything today!
But he got..kinda touchy even though we are over.
Kick him hard and he pinched me reeaaall Hard!
Got fustrated and ticked him off !@#$%
He pushed me hard fer several times, i bite his fingers
and he pushed me again. Gay.
Ended up argueing.. and called me a crazy bitch..
When i admited "Yeah.. i am, so what?" in a bitchy tone..
He gave me a slap...
Silence. I broke the necklace he gave me.
He replaced the broken neaklace with his, and apologised. Drama!
Like i said.. nothing new. And.. he is nothing new either..
Though its the first tyme being hit by a guy.
Didnt speak all the way till nearing adventure park..
Told him im looking fer alice..
all he said was "u changed"
And all i replied was : Than just F*** off.
So we headed in different direction, from the place we first met.
Hope it will be the last tyme im seeing him.


At night.. he msg me telling his going to malaysia bout some Phantom conflicts.
Cool. IIts just another obvious lie. The real shit is.. He wanna MIA from me..
And make me think he got beaten up or killed in the fight over there.
The end? I hope so.

Midnight.. Crying again. So not cool.
I hate to cry.. without a reason.
Im weird.. why am i crying?
i dont know.
Been so many nights and weeks..
When will these stop?